away from home

aaway from home...for two weeks...is killer...
but its great being at np too... wi th Vinkie... he's cute ah...( faster give me kiss then he'll like pout..)
Felicia....ah lain number two...totally on and damn easy going...very easy to be with...
and definitely easy to be with...

but i miss Ben...like crazy...i never thought it'd be so hard to be away from him..
it's this distance that confirms the fact that i love him so much...

i kiss ah jack, aunty, the staff and ralph too...ssigh...i'll be back home soon but i like the staff at np...but i don't want to get too close to the staff there....dont wan to make the ssme mistake again...

drinking with ah Qi now....

get back to you...
love love

chit

FUCK IT

To hsve something you love ripped away from you on purpose really makes the human blood boil.
i dun wan to go and yes maybe im being a little girl abt it but so what.
2 weeks is only saying how miserable im going to be.
n knowing everything, two weeks will become more than that after that..
its bullshit la...
its like e only reason you held on to is taken away from u and you don't hav any reason to hold on to anymore..

xoxo
Sad Monkey.

a new year of shit

SIGH!!!
A new year..
isn't it suppose to like a new start and everything...but we all know deep down its bullshit..
yeah yeah..we're suppose to be positive and everything but what abt last year?
didn't we say the same thing...but look at how the year turned out...like fuck..
last year i said at this time, i will be in school doing what ive always wanted.
but look at how that turned ojut.
im alien at home...
stranger...
its like im not even there anymore...
B is one of the good things...i guess...
the start of a new year also means ive to clear up all the shit i created this year...that's what sucks the most la...


xoxo
chit

LOST

e feeling is frustrating..
at one point of time,
i was so sure what i wanna do with my life.
know where i wanna go and how to get there...
im lost w frens..i miss everyone so much. they were my life...but what abt now?
relationship..
i think im blind..
work...
very lost...i miss being a staff..
family...
what is it that im suppose to do???
feels like everything i do is wrong...


xoxo
chit

YBY

I've never felt the urge to write abt someone to the extent that im going to write now..
i guess im only doing it because i really have, fallen for you.
i always thought falling was alright...cause it makes you stronger.
now i wonder is it really that great...
the feeling is wonderful you know..
loving you.
all i can think of most of the time is how much i love you. how much i miss you.
with you, there was so many first times...
you've also for the first time put a fear in me.
cause right now, all im afraid of is losing you.
i love sleeping in your arms...
i love the strong hold you have on me. No one could control me but you've beaten everyone and you grabbed me and held me down. you make me fly sky high all the time.

Like someone said, i am fucking brave and strong but when it comes to you, i crumble and fall so hard..you were the hardest thing that i had to love..the pain that followed it was excruciating but every bit was worth it...
you taught me so much without yourself knowing it.
you made me happy..
you took away my troubles and although you aren't what everyone thought you could be, i never want you to change for anything else.
the journey was exciting and worth it...everybit of it.

yby, you taught me the definition of unconditional love.
i made a promise at one point of time and at first, i thought it was going to be impossible to keep.
but right now, i know that if anyone had to pull away, it'll be you because i promised to no matter what never ever let you go.

i love you Yeow Ben Yao...
and you can't stop me cause at the end of the day,
I am stubborn...

xoxo
Chit

OH MY GOD!!

OH MY GOD! TEN THOUSAND YEARS!!

I FOUND YOU..
OK let me just tell you where i am right now.
i work T THE mANHATTAN fISH mARKET.
Im becoming the supervisor here..
ive got a boyfriend whom i really love..
yeah, i know that's a first...
but yeah...
next sunday will be our 5 months.
Family is still shit lar k?

Im kinda lost really.
not sure of where to go???
its hard...trying to please the whole world.
I love my frens and my staff..
and don't need to say who is the other one lar huh...


me and Pork died out already. we weren't frens sinnce last yr.
yeah, i do miss her... but me and clar still at it and going strong..
haha..
love ya babe...

gotta start work ready...

see ya round. ill be on here more than you know it..

oh oh oh
drank last night with Ben, Jack, Sue, Ah Haur and Stacy...
Fucking funny....

and im like super happy to have found my blog. i thought i lost you...
that's all for now!

Update the rest later...

long time no see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey there! million years balls.
alot things have happened!
read someones blog and i guess im bummed out with what ive written.
its alright la.
i guess im not as important as much as they are to me.

i dont know.
maybe im guessing.
but i feel like she's pulling her away from me.
both.
gone with the wind.
what can i do anyway?
she's more important...

hey, just know that i still like you...
alot.
i made my mistake...
twice,
but i know i wont do it again.
you still mean alot to me.
i dont know if you feel it,
but i do.
we're drifting and i really dont want to.
i may not make it obvious.
but i miss your messages.
i miss having you la.
if i could take back what i said,
i would..
just so we can be friends...again.
but if you dont feel the same, oh well.
i can change how you feel right?
you;ve got other fishes in the sea to pick from.
i guess im the last.
i;ll still be waiting though.
i still want to.....
i hope you know..


I love Ngee Ann!!!
yes! i got a call.
im fucking happy.

hey you piece of fucking shit!!!!!
knock your chin in with a fucking hammer?
i say go for it!!!!!!!
what you goona do huh?
NO NAME!!!
but everyone knows who im refering to!!
kill you! kill you! kill you!!! kill you!!
i hate you!!!
with every bit of me!!!

haha@get that