OH MY GOD!!

OH MY GOD! TEN THOUSAND YEARS!!

I FOUND YOU..
OK let me just tell you where i am right now.
i work T THE mANHATTAN fISH mARKET.
Im becoming the supervisor here..
ive got a boyfriend whom i really love..
yeah, i know that's a first...
but yeah...
next sunday will be our 5 months.
Family is still shit lar k?

Im kinda lost really.
not sure of where to go???
its hard...trying to please the whole world.
I love my frens and my staff..
and don't need to say who is the other one lar huh...


me and Pork died out already. we weren't frens sinnce last yr.
yeah, i do miss her... but me and clar still at it and going strong..
haha..
love ya babe...

gotta start work ready...

see ya round. ill be on here more than you know it..

oh oh oh
drank last night with Ben, Jack, Sue, Ah Haur and Stacy...
Fucking funny....

and im like super happy to have found my blog. i thought i lost you...
that's all for now!

Update the rest later...

long time no see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey there! million years balls.
alot things have happened!
read someones blog and i guess im bummed out with what ive written.
its alright la.
i guess im not as important as much as they are to me.

i dont know.
maybe im guessing.
but i feel like she's pulling her away from me.
both.
gone with the wind.
what can i do anyway?
she's more important...

hey, just know that i still like you...
alot.
i made my mistake...
twice,
but i know i wont do it again.
you still mean alot to me.
i dont know if you feel it,
but i do.
we're drifting and i really dont want to.
i may not make it obvious.
but i miss your messages.
i miss having you la.
if i could take back what i said,
i would..
just so we can be friends...again.
but if you dont feel the same, oh well.
i can change how you feel right?
you;ve got other fishes in the sea to pick from.
i guess im the last.
i;ll still be waiting though.
i still want to.....
i hope you know..


I love Ngee Ann!!!
yes! i got a call.
im fucking happy.

hey you piece of fucking shit!!!!!
knock your chin in with a fucking hammer?
i say go for it!!!!!!!
what you goona do huh?
NO NAME!!!
but everyone knows who im refering to!!
kill you! kill you! kill you!!! kill you!!
i hate you!!!
with every bit of me!!!

haha@get that

the fun's just starting

OH SHIT!
i cant wait. tomorrow night!
at rachel's house. its gonna be a blast.
then after that will be the chalet. woo hoo!!!!

met up with my brother yesterday. the one hat's half but the one that i love more.
it was fun and we met asri and clarissa and clarissa got a hint of what my dad was like. hahaha. he's a great dad...last time.

mum is still fucked up i guess. SOMEONE BEAT THAT WOMAN UP!"

MEETING MOJ in awhile. M EXCITED!!we'll be watching kungfu panda!!!!
he's damn cute...the panda la!
haha.
alright. have to go soon.

to junita: hey, on my part, i want to apologise for the things that ive said about you. next time we should just settle it asap and not let it build up. that's the best.
i love you jun and the rest of moj! i dont want to give up on us!

well, wrapping it up.
toodles you'll!

xoxo
chitra

s.o.s same old shit

I HATE HER. I HATE my mother like nothing. I WISH YOUD just GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!

AND YOU!!stop breaking us up. i dont care what your side of the story is, you still said what you said. you can be two face with your friends but dont even bother trying it with me.
i dont hate you but you're just so petty and i cant take it. you've got no friendship worth fighting for but i do and just learn to live with it la k?

parents signed consent formmso we're ready to go! im so excited.
here i come baby.

song: leavin

FIGHT FOR WHAT'S NOT RIGHT

WHY DO these lyrics suddenly feelso true?


THE HARDEST THING

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me
It's killing you
But both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusted me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Doctor Zhivago
All my love i'll be sending
And you'll never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There's no turning back
She's been good to be
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

***oh my god. old school.
i knw but i love these lyrics:)


BLEEDING LOVE
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep (keep) bleeding love (love)
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing (ooh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (ooh ooh)
Keep bleeding (oh ooh ooh)
Keep, keep bleeding love (love)
(Oh) you cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love (yeah ah yeah)
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (oh, I keep bleeding love)
Keep bleeding (I keep)
Keep, keep bleeding love (oh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

ssshhh... dun tell
xoxo
chitra was here

IM DAMN SAD!!!!!!!!

i can't believe it. my phone and mp3 got confiscated. my family is damn fucked up and i hate mr lee.
haiz.
what's new???????????
anyway, at macs with RACHEl! i miss hanging out with you babe!!!


i dunno, but i feel like she's moving on and having fun without us.
she's found new friends and her old friends are left behind.
i dunno if im sad or angry or just plain jane frustrated.
i can't get it out of my head.
she doesnt say it when she's with us
and she doesnt invite me.
its starting to get awkward and i cant say a thing.
anyway, im starting to dislike the person who is taking her away.

oh wellllssss, i have to let go eventually i guess.

PORK'S SKIRT GOT RIPPED!!!! BY CLAUDIA. MUHAHAHA. ITS HILARIOUS. I SEWED pork's uniform. haha.
anyway, pork and Rachel, lets go cam whore again ok? it was damn fun. haha. without the sticks this time. god knows whose phone will get confiscated next.

party is open house. not! haha. alot of random people are going. haha.
anyway, im sorry tasneem. i did not mean to sew my fingers. i was really angry and i was crying because of something else. not because it was going to get confiscated.
im sorry anyways.
alright.
"We are all gathered here today to say goodbye. GOODBYE!!!"
ps: she never said she had that much fun with us.
bye bye

outdated

wow. its been damn long.
haha.
well, alot is going on.
the party.
and exams.
and alot more.
today started with exams. haha. i had an english paper and i slept damn early. i was super tired. im suppose to be studying now but hey, who ever does that.
im st porks house now. the day was damn fun. haha. we played hide and seek with her parents. haha.
we're damn excited for the party. haha. invitations are out and all those who are invited, you'll be getting yours tmr. i hope the person i want will cme... a....
haha.okok.
Rachel's waiting to use this com and im going to study now.
" we are all gathered here to say goodbye. "GOODBYE!"
BYE.