CHAN PEI QI

CHAN PEI QI! I HATE YOUR FACE!YOUR FAT ASS! YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN TYPE ESSAY AH? PLS THINK AGAIN! YOU ALWAYS SAY PEOPLE UNTIL SO SHIOK, LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR MAN!YOU CANT EVEN SEE EVERYTHING! AND TRUST ME, THAT'S A FUCKING GOOD THING!YOU'RE USELESS! YOU'RE TOO OPINIATED! YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOURSELF! U PUSH PEOPLE DOWN! UR CRUEL AND UNKIND! YOU TELL ME I SHOULD LOOK AT MYSELF, HAVE YOU SEEN YOURSELF GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!!!fffffUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YYYYYYYOOOOOOOOUUUUUUU!!!!
PS: YOUR HOUSE IS DAMN UGLY!

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time,
there was a girl.
Who lost all hope and believe in everything that revolved around her.
Nothing went her way,
and slowly, day by day,
It just became worse and worse.
Eventually, it was beyond redemption.
She looked at the world,
With a critical eye.
The only thing she learnt was to never forgive and never forget.
Forever, She would hate.
Love wasn't even in her dictionary.

Until he came along and turned her world around.
She didn't love him either.
She was frustrated.
He made her confused.
What were these weird feelings inside her.
Like a bubble running through her.
How was she able to feel good when she was with him.
She didn't like these feelings.
It confused her.
It made her scared.

He started teaching her what was love.
What was kindness and caring.
In her eyes, he saw only her pain and he wondered if he could ever erase it completely.
But he knew he would never give up.
He wanted to fix her damaged soul.

No story is infact a happy ending.
But its the definition that we are looking for.
She allowed herself to heal.
She allowed herself to forgive.
But she never allowed herself to forget.
She learnt what is love.
She learnt it was okay to cherish it.
She allowed herself to be loved.
And in her mind,
That was all that seemed to matter...

xoxo
u needn't need to know.

fuck all of this la...

im so damn fucking sick of all of this..literally...
he's never going to love me anyway...why should i other..
of course i must bother..
i love him what...
but the way he always goes on abt other girls is just shit la...
he should just go..
dont love me than dont love la..
what can i do? Not say i can force him also fuck... the flirting and all that is just shit..
id rather he just break my heart..
this is not going anywhere...
i hate it..
i hate my life..
fuck everything that is..
and every soul that is in m life..
fuck them all..
and im so sick of J and AX..
it jst makes me think how sucky everything already is...

the feeling of enormous dread...

i fucking hate tis feeling sia..
seriously.
of him talking abt other girls and his rough edgeded words. And the other two just jumping over each other..
its just fuck la..
Now he's flat dead, as usual and its another dreary night that ive to go through.When will this ever stop?
im so sick of this..
by now, ive just realised ive learnt my mistake...
that he doesnt love me and he never will la..
so i should just fuck it right?
But i dont have the courage to...
because i'll hold on to anything..
but im killing mself.knowing that im just building up on the pain for later on like a save bank...

when everything is changing colour

i thought i knew you..
you were my brother and when i couldnt turn to anyone else,
i turned to you..
you guided me through my heart breaks and he didnt want to care for me,
you did the dirty work for him..
i loved you too but now you're gone..
you've found someone new and forgotten everyone else that passed through you..
i miss you..
the you whom i loved...
i will never forget but i cannot accept the now...
its too hard to..

xoxo
chit

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mannnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!

ok,....
the feeling of jealousy totally sucks..
see
see
see
that's why i hate being aay from somewhere..
then got second wife lar,
then comes the cheating la, then comes the sorry i didnt mean to la..
all because it was a joke..
the people are different as well..
its hard to be with everyone when suddenly dont trust anyone..
i hate my life..
really, there's always something to hate and thats the worst part..
god just kill me..
im aging with no where to go...
im getting super depressed abt it..
6 months coming soon...
im scared..
how long am i going to cling on with my finger tips...
thats what fucking sucks..
this whole place sucks la..
my whole life sucks la....

away from home

aaway from home...for two weeks...is killer...
but its great being at np too... wi th Vinkie... he's cute ah...( faster give me kiss then he'll like pout..)
Felicia....ah lain number two...totally on and damn easy going...very easy to be with...
and definitely easy to be with...

but i miss Ben...like crazy...i never thought it'd be so hard to be away from him..
it's this distance that confirms the fact that i love him so much...

i kiss ah jack, aunty, the staff and ralph too...ssigh...i'll be back home soon but i like the staff at np...but i don't want to get too close to the staff there....dont wan to make the ssme mistake again...

drinking with ah Qi now....

get back to you...
love love

chit