long time no see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey there! million years balls.
alot things have happened!
read someones blog and i guess im bummed out with what ive written.
its alright la.
i guess im not as important as much as they are to me.

i dont know.
maybe im guessing.
but i feel like she's pulling her away from me.
both.
gone with the wind.
what can i do anyway?
she's more important...

hey, just know that i still like you...
alot.
i made my mistake...
twice,
but i know i wont do it again.
you still mean alot to me.
i dont know if you feel it,
but i do.
we're drifting and i really dont want to.
i may not make it obvious.
but i miss your messages.
i miss having you la.
if i could take back what i said,
i would..
just so we can be friends...again.
but if you dont feel the same, oh well.
i can change how you feel right?
you;ve got other fishes in the sea to pick from.
i guess im the last.
i;ll still be waiting though.
i still want to.....
i hope you know..


I love Ngee Ann!!!
yes! i got a call.
im fucking happy.

hey you piece of fucking shit!!!!!
knock your chin in with a fucking hammer?
i say go for it!!!!!!!
what you goona do huh?
NO NAME!!!
but everyone knows who im refering to!!
kill you! kill you! kill you!!! kill you!!
i hate you!!!
with every bit of me!!!

haha@get that

the fun's just starting

OH SHIT!
i cant wait. tomorrow night!
at rachel's house. its gonna be a blast.
then after that will be the chalet. woo hoo!!!!

met up with my brother yesterday. the one hat's half but the one that i love more.
it was fun and we met asri and clarissa and clarissa got a hint of what my dad was like. hahaha. he's a great dad...last time.

mum is still fucked up i guess. SOMEONE BEAT THAT WOMAN UP!"

MEETING MOJ in awhile. M EXCITED!!we'll be watching kungfu panda!!!!
he's damn cute...the panda la!
haha.
alright. have to go soon.

to junita: hey, on my part, i want to apologise for the things that ive said about you. next time we should just settle it asap and not let it build up. that's the best.
i love you jun and the rest of moj! i dont want to give up on us!

well, wrapping it up.
toodles you'll!

xoxo
chitra

s.o.s same old shit

I HATE HER. I HATE my mother like nothing. I WISH YOUD just GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!

AND YOU!!stop breaking us up. i dont care what your side of the story is, you still said what you said. you can be two face with your friends but dont even bother trying it with me.
i dont hate you but you're just so petty and i cant take it. you've got no friendship worth fighting for but i do and just learn to live with it la k?

parents signed consent formmso we're ready to go! im so excited.
here i come baby.

song: leavin

FIGHT FOR WHAT'S NOT RIGHT

WHY DO these lyrics suddenly feelso true?


THE HARDEST THING

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me
It's killing you
But both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusted me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Doctor Zhivago
All my love i'll be sending
And you'll never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There's no turning back
She's been good to be
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you

***oh my god. old school.
i knw but i love these lyrics:)


BLEEDING LOVE
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep (keep) bleeding love (love)
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing (ooh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (ooh ooh)
Keep bleeding (oh ooh ooh)
Keep, keep bleeding love (love)
(Oh) you cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love (yeah ah yeah)
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (oh, I keep bleeding love)
Keep bleeding (I keep)
Keep, keep bleeding love (oh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

ssshhh... dun tell
xoxo
chitra was here

IM DAMN SAD!!!!!!!!

i can't believe it. my phone and mp3 got confiscated. my family is damn fucked up and i hate mr lee.
haiz.
what's new???????????
anyway, at macs with RACHEl! i miss hanging out with you babe!!!


i dunno, but i feel like she's moving on and having fun without us.
she's found new friends and her old friends are left behind.
i dunno if im sad or angry or just plain jane frustrated.
i can't get it out of my head.
she doesnt say it when she's with us
and she doesnt invite me.
its starting to get awkward and i cant say a thing.
anyway, im starting to dislike the person who is taking her away.

oh wellllssss, i have to let go eventually i guess.

PORK'S SKIRT GOT RIPPED!!!! BY CLAUDIA. MUHAHAHA. ITS HILARIOUS. I SEWED pork's uniform. haha.
anyway, pork and Rachel, lets go cam whore again ok? it was damn fun. haha. without the sticks this time. god knows whose phone will get confiscated next.

party is open house. not! haha. alot of random people are going. haha.
anyway, im sorry tasneem. i did not mean to sew my fingers. i was really angry and i was crying because of something else. not because it was going to get confiscated.
im sorry anyways.
alright.
"We are all gathered here today to say goodbye. GOODBYE!!!"
ps: she never said she had that much fun with us.
bye bye

outdated

wow. its been damn long.
haha.
well, alot is going on.
the party.
and exams.
and alot more.
today started with exams. haha. i had an english paper and i slept damn early. i was super tired. im suppose to be studying now but hey, who ever does that.
im st porks house now. the day was damn fun. haha. we played hide and seek with her parents. haha.
we're damn excited for the party. haha. invitations are out and all those who are invited, you'll be getting yours tmr. i hope the person i want will cme... a....
haha.okok.
Rachel's waiting to use this com and im going to study now.
" we are all gathered here to say goodbye. "GOODBYE!"
BYE.

OH MY GOD! I CANT STAND HER!!

I cant stand so many hers! so pissing off.
i hate my mother.
thanks alot for what you did to me on saturday!
thats what mothers do what!
beat their children up.
there are not enough words to describe how i hate you. i cant stand you.
why must you be my mother???????
pls just disown me and ill live a better life!

friday night was great while it lasted. until that bitch kept calling me.
anyway, sorry chelsea for stressing you out.i had fun though. haha.

i hate that bitch! she's so pissing me off. fuck off!

rachel gave birth to over hundred babies today! it was crazy! haha!
we moved class today and it sucks! haha!
alright.
slacking atpork's house! its not messy lar pork!

OH MY GOD! I CANT STAND HER!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM. CRY THEN JUST SAY YOU CRY AH!WHY SO FAKE? YOU'RE THE ONE WHO SAY YOU ARE STRAIGHT FORWARD...THEN? HELLO? WHAT THE FUCK? I CANT STAND YOU AND I HATE YOU!!!!! I WISH YOU WOULD JUST FUCK OFF. PEOPLE DO THINGS FOR YOU....SAY THANK AH!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! SAY PEOPLE BLACK, LOOK IN THE MIRROR! YOU CANT SEE YOUR REFLECTION CAUSE THE MIRROR WILL FUCKING CRACK!!!!! YOU'RE UGLY, FAT AND SMELLY? HAVE YOU SEEN THE BACK OF YOUR FUCKING KNEES! I FEEL LIKE PUKING! YOU MAKE ME SICK BITCH!1AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!I HATE YOU. WITH EVERY SINGLE BIT OF MY SOUL! PLS....I BEG, JUMP OFF SOMETHING HIGH! STUDY FOR O LEVEL FOR WHAT! YOU'RE STILL GONNA FAIL! IF DUN UNDERSTAND, STILL GOT DICTIONARY BITCH! TRY USING IT!!


PS: I LOVE YOU..........................................NOT! NO ONE LOVE EXCEPT YOU YOURSELF AND YOU!

PSS: YOU ONCE WROTE IN YOUR BLOG, YOU CAN SAY WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY. WELL, I CAN COMMENT WHAT I WANT TO COMMENT! AND I WANNA SAY I HATE YOU! TWO FACE BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PSSS:OH, THIS IS NOT RACHEL. RACHEL IS MORE ORIGINAL. LUCKY YOU!
SLUT!

FUCK YOU BITCHES

Im so sick off the people surrounding me. what the hell is their problem? you say we're taking it too far, but what about you. you're contributing to the lies as well. haven't you got a brain to think with. you're so obsessed with people bitching about you most of the time, you dont even realise that they are bitching abt you. all of them who say they are your friends. hello?
and you. say you like someone for almost a year just to impress the girl you like??? ya sure. impress her with your lies. that'll do great.
you honestly have to get you're facts right. dont hurt other people just because they dnt think youre so great anymore. get over your self man!!
and that fucking hypocrite!you're such a slut with a fucked up face. stop breaking up friendships just because you dont have any true friends. everyone hates you. it just takes too much trouble to actually say it out loud. im quite sure everyone had had a ad thought abt you. you're a mother fucking piece of shit. the things you write dont even make sense most of the time la k?
and the vain pot and bragger still suck too. go fuck yourself la please. i beg you. do everyone a favour and jump off a building or something.




To Rachel
hey babe. i just wanted to say that the things she says now is just to help improve her ego. just because she says the things she said, it doesnt mean its true. dun break your heart over her. im so proud you got over her. lately, you've been a great friend. i dont want anything to happen to you alright. take care babe. love ya.


to clarissa and pork
hey guys. i was thinking the other day and i realise something. i should thank you'll. alot. despite the things that evelyn said to you'll about me, you'll still stood by me as my friend. you'll believed in me and stood by me instead of abandoning me. i should thank you'll alot. i love you guys. nothing will break us up. no matter what her black mouth says. no matter what.!!!


12 APRIL 2008
the day started with my mum shouting as though there was no end to the world. then later met with Rachel, Pork, Clar and Junita. we ate ban mian and watched bucket list. it wasn't that great lar but it was still nice to watch. anyway, later, we went to sky garden to lepak. haha. clar was fucking high. we took jump shots and became dead tired. haha. anyway, 16 bought us all home. we also spent a good part of the day BITCHING about E----N. that was fun. went home and died.
thought about ML and dreamed of him too. haha.

mood:random
song:with you
time:226pm

hey yall

I have a blog..again. i tend to have unknown blogs all the time. whats new?
anyway, yeasterday was damn fucked up cause SOME people tried to break the three of us up. school is getting more and more fucked up. I have to deal with vain people, people who brag twenty four seven and fuckers who are racist and cant keep their big mouth shut. but its ok. she says she's 18 but unfortunately, she doesnt act like one neither does she SPEAK like one!
no one wants to hate her. she just makes people hate them. she has to realise that people aren't her slaves!
being two face is damn outdated.
Being racist is going to send her to prison!!!!!!
BABE! HELLO, if you carrying on with your english being this way, you're going down the drain bitch!
and vain pot, BB is so out. it doesnt affect people.
at least im not a slut, cunt, whore, bitch, mother fucker, skank, bragger and think im hot. cant say so much for yourself can you? ha!thought so. anyway, very few people are going to know of this blog. its for me to release anger and spread happiness.
"quote of the day:a cigarette a day keeps the doctor away!
song:because of you
mood:fucked up
time:tigertime